"Goodbye"

"And I feel so damned nostalgic everytime I think about those times. I forget how it began that I wouldnt recognize you on the line. And I start to feel so guilty, goddamned it I swear to you I tried, to place between the distances before I left without saying goodbye."

The lyrics are from a song I can relate to now, as it seems all the friends relationships you counted on as foundations. Relationships where you knew they were going to last forever. You spent time making plans in the back of your mind for all of us to celebrate, the way we did for mine.

And then, a few years later, when it all goes away suddenly, and without warning, we're left with the underlying feelings we had about the world before they ever got together.

And while it strengthens your own relationship, staying strong despite everything that's going on around us, you can't help but feel damn sorry for your closest friend(s) as they attempt
to piece back together the life of who they were before they met this person.

So you spend time, like you did before you were married, and time flowed on like beers just before night, sitting out on the porch with your roomate that summer watching the sun go down. Not much was said, but you were both hoping, that the way you shared time with one another, that it would continue, even with our siginificant others.

But there's a ghost inhabiting our talks, walking through the woods with the ghost of the ex- girlfriend looming large overhead.

Songs take on new meaning, and all around theres that reminder that its so easy to be alone in the world, easy to be angry and bitter, and sometimes its just really hard to be alone, with ghots gnawing at you, memories taking you back to places you don't want to go, with people you no longer care about.